gawd, it's been ages! er... uhm... time to update my blog.

grabe ang dami nang nangyari since my last entry...

Nov 30...celebrated my 24th birthday (waah! tanda ko na)

Dec 2 ... lost my bag at timezone along with 2 cel phones, payments for insurance and dorm, and other important documents (kainis... dahil kasi sa katangahan 'to)

Dec 23 rvcd a text from him asking if he can call me on Christmas (super dooper HP! muntik maihi sa tuwa!)

sleepless nights in between until Christmas day...


Dec 25 Christmas! Woke-up early... waited for that one call that never came... rcvd a text from him telling me he can't get thru my line... oh well... (sheesh, i was devastated... this one would have been a perfect Christmas gift...haay )

Dec 31 he greeted for the new year... replied something mushy to his mobile, wonder if he never got it or he just chose not to reply...

Jan 6 our last conversation...

missing him... worried sick because of his absence... paranoid... thankful in between emotions.

living my life. discovering myself. finding meaning in my existence.

eager to please God.

Jan 15 arrived at a place i never left. hunted down old profs to get recommendation letters for the MS program. wish i could turn back the hands of time. i miss the good old days in Baguio.

Jan 18 went to Jesus Loves Little Children Foundation with my ex-roommate. asked if they needed volunteers. turned out God has other plans for us.

i don't know what i'd do with my life. i lack focus. it's like everything's in a blur. the last time i checked i was so keen on pursuing graduate studies. i really wanted to change career. but it got me to thinking about my finances and current responsibilities. my enthusiasm crashed just like that. i realized i couldn't afford to send myself to school again, because that would mean paying for my tuition fees, books, and other expenses. reality check. with my meager monthly salary, sending myself to school would be next to impossible. following your dream has a price to pay. for now, i can't afford it. it has to wait.

An otherwise boring day...

this morning, i was going through my boring office routine again. opened the PC. checked e-mails. yahoogroups. offline PMs. my friends' blogs...uhm..did i just say blogs? BLOG. my saving grace for the day. yeah right. as if i know anything about blogs. i just read them. big time. hey, i can't be blamed. it's free gossip for crying out loud. the idea of making my own, publishing my thoughts online wasn't that enticing at first. so what made me decide to do one? that i'm not sure. maybe the anonymity suddenly becomes appealing to me.

so what else makes this day otherwise boring? it's raining. and it's all that matters.