i don't know what i'd do with my life. i lack focus. it's like everything's in a blur. the last time i checked i was so keen on pursuing graduate studies. i really wanted to change career. but it got me to thinking about my finances and current responsibilities. my enthusiasm crashed just like that. i realized i couldn't afford to send myself to school again, because that would mean paying for my tuition fees, books, and other expenses. reality check. with my meager monthly salary, sending myself to school would be next to impossible. following your dream has a price to pay. for now, i can't afford it. it has to wait.