i don't know what i'd do with my life. i lack focus. it's like everything's in a blur. the last time i checked i was so keen on pursuing graduate studies. i really wanted to change career. but it got me to thinking about my finances and current responsibilities. my enthusiasm crashed just like that. i realized i couldn't afford to send myself to school again, because that would mean paying for my tuition fees, books, and other expenses. reality check. with my meager monthly salary, sending myself to school would be next to impossible. following your dream has a price to pay. for now, i can't afford it. it has to wait.

An otherwise boring day...

this morning, i was going through my boring office routine again. opened the PC. checked e-mails. yahoogroups. offline PMs. my friends' blogs...uhm..did i just say blogs? BLOG. my saving grace for the day. yeah right. as if i know anything about blogs. i just read them. big time. hey, i can't be blamed. it's free gossip for crying out loud. the idea of making my own, publishing my thoughts online wasn't that enticing at first. so what made me decide to do one? that i'm not sure. maybe the anonymity suddenly becomes appealing to me.

so what else makes this day otherwise boring? it's raining. and it's all that matters.